I remember lying in bed the day I learned what divorce was, terrified that my parents’ marriage would end that way.
I remember being afraid of what people thought of me, always scared to do or say the wrong thing. I self-soothed by sucking my finger longer than most kids do (and my parents’ orthodontist bills proved it).
Those things happened in my elementary school years, but it didn’t stop there. My anxiety (and depression) resurfaced one year in college, and I knew I needed the help of medicine to pull me out of the pit.
“What-if Land” was my enemy. What if someone I love dies? What if I contract a terminal illness? What if this horrible thing or that terrible thing happens to me?
I was held captive by fear.
Though I’d been a Christ-follower since a young age, I still allowed fear to rule me.
It wasn’t until 2006, when my dad nearly died, that I really began to emerge from that captivity. God, in His great mercy, gave me the opportunity to face a huge fear…and to learn, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that He is MORE than enough to sustain me. He is SO MUCH BIGGER than any of my fears.
I had one choice: trust that God is always good and always does what is right…or don’t.
I chose to trust Him, and let me tell you friends, trusting God is the antidote to fear.
Praise God, HE FREES US from what holds us captive.
Back in 2005, Georgia resident Ashley Smith was captive to a life full of drugs and brokenness. She was widowed when her young husband was murdered, and she dulled her pain with drugs…causing her daughter to be taken away from her. She’d just moved into a new apartment when she was taken captive – quite literally – by an escaped convict.
Her experience is chronicled in the book Captive: The Untold Story of the Atlanta Hostage Hero. And the theatrical movie of the same title is set to release in theatres this Friday, September 18. Watch the trailer below.
This book and film caught my attention, not because of the fast-paced, heart-thumping aspects of it, but because of the redemption. This broken woman was brought to repentance by the most unlikely of circumstances. She was brought to the end of herself, and thankfully, found her Savior there.
What holds you captive, friends? What will it take to bring you to your knees in front of the God who loves and created you?
I’d love to get a copy of this book into one of your hands. Just go ahead and leave a comment below, and I’ll enter you into the contest. I’ll wait 7 days before drawing a winner.
Disclosure: They gave me a copy of the book to read. I read it. These are my opinions, not theirs. And they didn’t give me any money.